[ it's possible, she admits, that she'd been this way before. that it had just felt so normal that she hadn't thought anything of it, and isolation had only made those voices louder and more jarring to her. she'd grown more sensitive without the constant chorus. but she can't say for sure. the memories of childhood are too fuzzy, full of holes. ]
[ she won't let herself think of it that way, even as memories resurface. new ones. stings of disgust and pity when people looked at her. she'd always been dirt underfoot, when she'd lived in kuruko land. hadn't she? ]
( because he really doesn't get it, this enduring loyalty. she hadn't been in the camp. hadn't been near enough to get a real sense of her until they'd blundered right into each other hours later. )
you know what i think? i think you're projecting. you want to believe i'm alone because no matter how many people are inside your head, not one of them actually cares about you. they couldn't possibly. not when they can't tell where they end and you begin.
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( fuck. fuck. fuck. )
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since i left my clan
[ she takes this to mean 'how long have you been able to do this' ]
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That kind of power.
It comes out early if it comes out at all.
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[ it's possible, she admits, that she'd been this way before. that it had just felt so normal that she hadn't thought anything of it, and isolation had only made those voices louder and more jarring to her. she'd grown more sensitive without the constant chorus. but she can't say for sure. the memories of childhood are too fuzzy, full of holes. ]
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( bristling a little at the implication. he exhales through the frustration, though, shaking his head as if to clear it. )
I'm surprised they let you go, your people.
Even the most backwards clans know the value of people who can do that.
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they were civilized enough to know better than to speak ill of the dead.
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( excuse him if he doesn't weep at their loss. )
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[ she won't let herself think of it that way, even as memories resurface. new ones. stings of disgust and pity when people looked at her. she'd always been dirt underfoot, when she'd lived in kuruko land. hadn't she? ]
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( because he really doesn't get it, this enduring loyalty. she hadn't been in the camp. hadn't been near enough to get a real sense of her until they'd blundered right into each other hours later. )
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They'd have handed you over to us given half the chance. Probably without much persuasion.
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if kossos weren't devouring its neighbors they would have had nothing to fear.
it's your fault i couldn't stay with them.
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See that's the difference between my people and yours.
My people don't abandon their own. No matter how bad it gets.
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i was protecting them.
i tried to keep them safe.
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i think you're projecting.
you want to believe i'm alone because no matter how many people are inside your head, not one of them actually cares about you.
they couldn't possibly.
not when they can't tell where they end and you begin.
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( a snap of anger, like an animal flashing teeth, momentarily ready to draw blood. )
Can you say the same?
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and i'm never coming with you.