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[solaran]

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[somatosensory]

That anyone that throws you out like garbage doesn't deserve your sympathy.

[solaran]

that's not what happened.

[ she won't let herself think of it that way, even as memories resurface. new ones. stings of disgust and pity when people looked at her. she'd always been dirt underfoot, when she'd lived in kuruko land. hadn't she? ]

[somatosensory]

Explain it to me, then.

( because he really doesn't get it, this enduring loyalty. she hadn't been in the camp. hadn't been near enough to get a real sense of her until they'd blundered right into each other hours later. )

[solaran]

they tried to protect themselves from the likes of you.

[somatosensory]

At your expense.

They'd have handed you over to us given half the chance. Probably without much persuasion.

[solaran]

to protect the clan.
if kossos weren't devouring its neighbors they would have had nothing to fear.
it's your fault i couldn't stay with them.

[somatosensory]

To protect themselves.

See that's the difference between my people and yours.
My people don't abandon their own. No matter how bad it gets.

[solaran]

i wasn't abandoned.
i was protecting them.
i tried to keep them safe.

[somatosensory]

Now who's lying, Mavis?

[solaran]

fuck off

[somatosensory]

I don't think so.

[solaran]

you know what i think?
i think you're projecting.
you want to believe i'm alone because no matter how many people are inside your head, not one of them actually cares about you.
they couldn't possibly.
not when they can't tell where they end and you begin.

[somatosensory]

I know who I am.

( a snap of anger, like an animal flashing teeth, momentarily ready to draw blood. )

Can you say the same?

[solaran]

i'm a survivor.
and i'm never coming with you.